exodus 40

‘Until the day’

be it in my mouth ever 

And not ‘what—‘

(oh, answerless question

to make one stare into the distance

to look for what no eye may see)

‘—what will be?’

All of life, what makes life

stands there between.

From now unto then

from then unto now:

everything

and all things

be not disavowed.

What is to be

is one day what was;

the paint will be dry

but what is the piece?

Both artist

and subject,

and yet, cannot see.

I’ve been told—

I have faith—

in the tapestry

And in the going up of the cloud from off the tabernacle the sons of Israel journey in all their journeys; and if the cloud go not up, then they journey not– until the day of its going up. -exodus 40

 

note: I usually have an image to round out the imagery…couldn’t find one for this. feel free to suggest one, send a link in a comment <3love

a year from summer

what happened out there
i'm still not sure
a ghost town
a barrel key
3,000 miles
my best friend
and me.

sufjan sings: "all things go, all things go"
and “I've made a lot of mistakes..”
well I’ve made a lot
of mistakes
and what happens now?
and still
I wait
to know

Pull over, I said
we don’t have this at home
your grass is my gold
I never asked
you never told
I dreamt and you drove

future tense

Romans 8:24, 25

I am not what I am but who I am.

I Am is, so too who I am is;

But also is not:

all here

or right now

or done.

But when I Am

is who I am

I am

grateful

hopeful

inspired.

And until I am who I am

I am

Will Be.

Don’t Water Too Much

this photo courtesy of that time we tried to make ted fat

This post is dedicated to Ted Teddy Theo Theodore Didday:  my treeclimbing, John Mayer p’wning, Autotuning, making Songs For Youing, Scoots Mcgootsing, licorice-eating, Kenny G Christmas music in Maying, pokerfacing, sushi rolling, Lion Kinging, salmon-worshipping ( ;p ), bringing mutton-chops backing, Schni schna schnapping, Phishing, It’s Always Sunnying, hula-hooping, dumpster divingest roomie.

As you may (probably not) know, I’m moving off Pennsylvania Ave and out of my apartment when I leave for the East Coast in a few weeks. Hence, Ted and I will be roommates in spirit only–which saddens me.

Ted, *ladies* is awesome. Also, Theo’s rediculously talented in the musical arena, like some kind of instrumental gladiator, with less blood and more ukulele. That’s awesome², for the mathematically challenged among us. He has a website/amazing service called Songs Made For You (SMFY–”Smiffy”, for short). Check that out and order yoself up a song! You absolutely will not be disappointed. Make sure you order something both T-Payne inspired and incorporating a harpsichord–then sit back and have your  mind blown.

Here was supposed to be a link to a song he wrote me one day, just cause he’s awesome (did I mention that? I feel like I did…) but the link won’t work. It was called Don’t Water Too Much and in it he gave the musical bird to a guy that foolishly broke my heart. Pssht.

Oh! and his band, Libros En Fuego, is awesome. So, awesome³ (when I said the mathematically challenged among us I meant…me.) If you’re in the mid-Cal region, you like jazz mixed with funk mixed with jellyfish costumes and possibly a teensy bit o’ Luther Vandross, and you enjoy seeing a bunch of rediculously talented people kill it onstage–check out one of their shows coming up soon….HERE!

Tedrick's banda

Anywho, Ted is awesome, annnnnd I miss him, annnnnd if you are a hot single lady, robot, or lady robot you should look him up in Santa Cruz and go support his band and buy a song and ask him to take you dumpster diving on the back of his scooter.

You’ll love it, or your money back!

hit & amiss

 

eyes like that

you nearly did it, boy

42 minute tour

this scar, here, your elbow

the little one on your knee-

but you jumped the gun, alright

trying too hard in the

soft rain you aimed for lips

busy smiling silent questions, saying

‘what are you made of?’

and ‘I can sing

but can you play?’

and last but not least,

‘how far, how long,

how high?’

and ‘oh, I see’.

and so,

I turned my head.